Got change?

Once again I have come back to this place. I've been here far too many times. It seems I'm always surprised when I get here. Practicing the very defintion of insanity all of us are familiar with. Change for me has got to get beyond just a good idea and down into my heart where real change begins. The truth is I don't like change or maybe its the effort involved that bring me heart burn. What ever it may be, it must happen. When I look to see that most of what I see I don't like or want, it must happen. A man much wiser than I said, "Change is not change until it becomes change!" Dr. Ed Cole is right. Profound in its simplicity. I know the key to real change is in making little adjustments. Too much at once can be overwelming. Consistancy creates a new patten until the pattern becomes a new way of life. I also know the place I must mount my attack. Its me. I am the only one I can do anything about. Seems I'm the last one I want to try to motivate. The only place know I can begin is to stop blaming others for my plight and accept responsability for my life and its result. Been a victim too long, and allowed others to have an influence that wasn't theirs in my life. After all I am the only constant in all that I'm wanting changed. Prune here, put away there, add this, expand that but above all have I come to the place where I am sick and tired enough to do it? A good begining is important but a good follow through is more important. I may be posting this for myself, but if anyone care to follow this adventure I'll try to keep you posted.